Righting Myself
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ceitfiannaGEMINI (May 21-June 20): In Santa Cruz there used to be a nightclub that
featured live rock bands on a big stage but enforced a strict policy
forbidding its patrons from dancing. The one time I went there, the music
was loud and infectious, and I naturally felt the urge to move in vigorous
rhythm. Moments after I launched into my groove, a bouncer accosted me
and forced me to stop. I think this situation has certain resemblances to
the one you're in now, Gemini. Some natural response mechanism in you is
being unduly inhibited; some organic inclination is being unreasonably
restrained or dampened. Why should you continue to accept this?
Once again Unce Rob is incredibly on the nose. I feel like I spent most of yesterday having to find ways to say things, so people wouldn't be angry while I was worn out and a mess.
Other than the job stuff, most of what's been going on with me is working to make lots of things fall into line. I was woken this morning with a question about my healthcare that I'm signing up for and I don't know the best way to contact the government to say, I can't afford to pay back my loans yet. And my well meaning parents are poking me about it which makes me fret. If we were RPing or anything yesterday especially after about 5:30 pm, I was so quiet because I was working to find my balance again. Today I've been working on healing myself and giving myself permission to go, the interaction I had was horrible. My supervisor looked over the transcript and said I did the right thing and she's sorry I had to go through it.
I spent a huge part of today wandering around Barnes and Noble and finally ended up buying The Goat Rodeo Sessions by some of my favorite artists. For dinner I'll have another tasty night of leftover tamale pie. Next time I make it, I think I'll use tomato paste or sauce instead of just diced tomatoes, it will stick together better.
In other things I'm proud of, I made a gorgeous collage of Flat Stanley pictures for my niece that I'm going to send. It's more than a month later and I hope that's okay. Things are getting better and by this time next week, I'll be on the East Coast with my family and for that I'm incredibly grateful. Soon I'll be putting up a post to collect addresses as I'll be making and sending out holiday cards and maybe writing some fic gifts. I haven't decided on the second one yet, but I probably will as I love writing gifts.
featured live rock bands on a big stage but enforced a strict policy
forbidding its patrons from dancing. The one time I went there, the music
was loud and infectious, and I naturally felt the urge to move in vigorous
rhythm. Moments after I launched into my groove, a bouncer accosted me
and forced me to stop. I think this situation has certain resemblances to
the one you're in now, Gemini. Some natural response mechanism in you is
being unduly inhibited; some organic inclination is being unreasonably
restrained or dampened. Why should you continue to accept this?
Once again Unce Rob is incredibly on the nose. I feel like I spent most of yesterday having to find ways to say things, so people wouldn't be angry while I was worn out and a mess.
Other than the job stuff, most of what's been going on with me is working to make lots of things fall into line. I was woken this morning with a question about my healthcare that I'm signing up for and I don't know the best way to contact the government to say, I can't afford to pay back my loans yet. And my well meaning parents are poking me about it which makes me fret. If we were RPing or anything yesterday especially after about 5:30 pm, I was so quiet because I was working to find my balance again. Today I've been working on healing myself and giving myself permission to go, the interaction I had was horrible. My supervisor looked over the transcript and said I did the right thing and she's sorry I had to go through it.
I spent a huge part of today wandering around Barnes and Noble and finally ended up buying The Goat Rodeo Sessions by some of my favorite artists. For dinner I'll have another tasty night of leftover tamale pie. Next time I make it, I think I'll use tomato paste or sauce instead of just diced tomatoes, it will stick together better.
In other things I'm proud of, I made a gorgeous collage of Flat Stanley pictures for my niece that I'm going to send. It's more than a month later and I hope that's okay. Things are getting better and by this time next week, I'll be on the East Coast with my family and for that I'm incredibly grateful. Soon I'll be putting up a post to collect addresses as I'll be making and sending out holiday cards and maybe writing some fic gifts. I haven't decided on the second one yet, but I probably will as I love writing gifts.
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Date: 2011-11-23 02:50 am (UTC)It's the winter crud - it seems to have come early this year.
(your icon looks so sad and yet makes me so happy. His face!)
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Date: 2011-11-23 02:53 am (UTC)Hee, I get that. When I was in high school I was in the marching band so my talking and hearing always suffered for a couple of months and my dad is hard of hearing so I talk louder around him.
Yes, there's so much winter crud. Both my parents have it and I'm dealing with it, but there's tea and I don't have to do as much which helps.
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Date: 2011-11-26 10:04 pm (UTC)I assume we are talking about the recent Narnia movies and not the BBC ones that came out when we were kids? (which I did not care for because Lucy felt all wrong to me - I can't remember now but maybe she just wasn't a good actress). But the recent movies - when I saw my first preview in the movie theater, I sobbed. Right there in the theater during the trailers. Just...sobbed.
It was like coming home.
So yeah, I own that. I quite liked the second and third one as well, but haven't splurged for those yet. But TL,TWaTW is like the best book adaptation I have ever seen.
It's the first time I ever actually heard of James.
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Date: 2011-11-26 10:08 pm (UTC)My weird thing for the Narnia books is I've yet to read the last one even though I own it because I don't want the series to be over. Now I kind of wish I was at my place so I could rewatch Narnia, it's just an amazing movie.
My only complaint with it is the scene with Tumnus and Edmund in the Witch's palace, it was a twist in the gut that I don't think was needed. It was done incredibly well but it just felt too much for me.
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Date: 2011-11-27 11:05 pm (UTC)I don't ever expect movie adaptations to be good or stick to the source material as much as TL,TWandTW did.
I have never read the book about The Professor when he was a kid. It's the only one I haven't read. We were slowly buying them in hardcover for my mother, when we were children, every Christmas a new one and that was the last of them. By that time, I already had this idea in my head about The Professor and I could never bring myself to read it. I should now.
Tumnus and Edmund at the Witch's - lots of people had that complaint. I think it is a matter of trust - trust that the actor playing Edmund could portray all of the internal emotions we see in the book and trust that the audience would understand it. I do love when movie makers trust their audience more, but both Skandar and James were so amazing in that scene that I can't bring myself to care too overly much that the scene wasn't really needed.
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Date: 2011-11-28 12:28 am (UTC)It was a fantastic scene, they did a great job with it, but it just broke my heart a lot.