Thoughts on the Journey

This EP and it's Mixed Muses' mirror were the best ideas ever. Quatre and Charles are talking about dreams, I will somehow finish the dream!fic. I also should have been in bed a few hours ago and will be bleary tomorrow but I'll deal.

I'm posting a quick meme as it's one I love and I'm still thinking about an AU that I need to write.

Give me an AU prompt in the comments and I will plot out for you the fic it evokes in my mind.

And both memes over on this post are still open. For reference those are the tell me about a story I haven't written and drop an image plus characters as a prompt.

Now I'm going to sleep as I love when my creativity gets flowing and I'm such a night owl.

This week has been long and I keep meaning to write about it but end up being tired. So I'm going to do that today. I think a lot of that long comes from a feeling of responsibilities piling up on me.

In the good realm of things, I now have three appointments set up with people who know about the library and private school world over Thanksgiving break. I'm going to find a job somewhere.

The major bad is that on Thursday I found out my debit card number had been stolen again, which makes me want to hit things. I'm doing everything I can to protect it and the bank moves quickly but it's another sign that I need to be on my own and supporting myself so I don't rely on a bank in another state.

As that happened on Thursday when I had plans for doing other things, my list of stuff to get done got pushed back. I also stayed up far too late on Thursday night doing wonderful RP with mercuriaz and the Matt Jamison plot, which meant I was kind of bleary on Friday morning.

I also did my Yuletide nominations: Homeward Bounders-Jamie, Joris, Helen, Konstam
Old Kingdom-Sameth, Nicholas Sayre, Ellimere, Yrael
3:10 to Yuma-the entire Evans' family
All of these I know how to write and would love to read and for the second two I tried to pick characters that might be forgotten.

Yesterday was quiet for me but I am taking steps to accomplish more on my list. My Flat Stanley pictures are uploaded so I can soon print and send them off to my niece. I have ideas for writing as RPing Charles is taking up my brain for him, but I want to finish the dream fic. Today I'm going to take care of some insurance stuff and try making a tamale pie. One of the things on my list is dealing with my student loans. Those of you who pay them, what's the best way to contact and say, hey, I can't afford these right now. I keep meaning to talk to someone on campus about them but don't know who. I'd appreciate any ideas.

Now to end with some pictures of things from a while back starting with my haul from Conclave.

My Wicked Girls' shirt, my new sleepshirt, bracelet, earrings and book.

( Close up of the jewelry )

I found the mall in Ann Arbor and I'm not a fan of it. There are some good stores and I almost bought a Gryffindor tie at Hot Topic and some Lands End jeans at Sears but didn't. I ended up buying a late lunch at Chipotle and a cinnabon and having a great desire to cry. I've never liked shopping for clothes but its got worse lately. I'm not happy with how my body is and keep having awful self doubt about everything that it sneaks in and makes me want to curl up and hide from the world. I know that this won't last long and that I can do amazing things as I have done them before, but today's hard.

Also I had the fun of getting lost going out of the mall, as happens so often in Ann Arbor, I turned the wrong way and had to search for someplace to turn around. Normally I'd enjoy this more but it was rush hour so it ended up being stressful.

Oh and my good friend who's looking for the same sort of job has two interviews. I wish her well but that just scares me more and then I feel terribly guilty for feeling less than her and all those things. I hate self-doubt.

Thus you get two memes from me, another round of answers to questions and a fic prompt.

The prompt's a variation on what's on sardonicynic's journal.
Give me a fandom, character, pairing from any fandom you know I follow as always ask and I'll try then give me a prompt, a word, a kink, a line of something and I'll write at least 100 words for you.


-Comment on this entry asking for questions
-Post your answers and this meme
-Rinse and repeat for fun and profit

This round the questions are from one_more_cherry
( Tell me about who you play. )

As inspired by in_the_blue I'm going to write about the various characters that I love playing. One thing that I found rather challenging as I was thinking about this is how to divide up this list since I think of my characters in different ways. I have a feeling that what I start out writing might not be what I end up with.

My Boys: Will Scarlett (Robin Hood), Sameth (Abhorsen Chronicles), William Evans (3:10 to Yuma)
Will is the first character that I ever wrote fanfiction abut when I didn't even know what it was because I wanted to know more. He represents one of my favorite kinds of characters which three boys capture, the side character who's so key, has their own issues and sometimes is forgotten. I love finding these characters and bringing out their stories and fixing them. All of these boys have issues with knowing who they are and where they fit in their worlds.

Will Scarlett does better since thanks to Robin Hood, he knows who he is but one thing that happens when I play him is he's conscious of all that he doesn't know. Sameth on the other hand has what he's meant to be doing but its not what makes him happy so he's constantly feeling like he's disappointing people. William is trying to fill his father shoes and take care of his family and find his own way. I think these boys capture a lot of my personal insecurities and I like that I can fix theirs since it gives me ideas about how to deal with my own.

Themselves: Demeter (Greek Mythology), Moist von Lipwig (Discworld), The Pirate King (The Pirates of Penzance)
What I love playing with these three is that they know who they are and don't have to worry about anyone's ideas. Demeter makes me happy because she's so alive and embraces life from the cold of winter to the glory of spring. In another life, I pursued Classics into a higher degree and she lets me play with my utter love of the strange ways of the Greeks.

Moist is tricky and always up to something, he just has fun with the world too but in a more selfish way than Demeter. I wish I could get away with what he does and I adore playing someone who tries to game the world. The Pirate King is pure Gilbert and Sullivan combined with Kevin Kline, I don't play him very often because he's not a sustaining voice. He's a comet that goes through and burns things in its wake.

Shifting but Sure: Jane Austen (Becoming Jane), Tumnus (Chronicles of Narnia), Tiwa (Changeling OC)
These three characters have a sense of where they're going and they're still on that journey. Becoming Jane is a movie that I fell in love with the first time I saw it in Wellington right around my birthday, it was beautiful and witty and as someone who adores Jane Austen it made me happy. Jane is a character that I thought about playing since I first saw the movie but I was worried about messing her up. It took dynastessa who kept being stubborn to get me to play her. Now I adore her, she's not an easy one to play, because I hold myself to a high standard with her speech and manner.

Tumnus is another one that I just love but never even though I would play. I think once in a DE I mentioned that he was a character I could imagine playing and someone told me he was free. Then suddenly I was playing him, he's a quiet character but another one that I feel careful with since he's my childhood. He's found his place and he fits there. Tiwa, I love Tiwa because she's my chance to play a Changeling again and keep connecting to New Zealand. She's a shapeshifter who is learning to be a teacher and she has such a web of people in mixed_muses and I have such fun with her journey.

Connecting Tissue
One thing I've discovered about myself in my many years of roleplaying from tabletop to Larp to online is that I tend to play characters that I have things in common with and that aren't of the modern world. I've always loved reading fantasy, but the kind of fantasy where magic is just out of the corner of your eye is one of my favorite types. Charles De Lint writes this type amazingly well and one reason I got into Changeling: The Dreaming was because it felt like it could be his world.

For me Milliways has that same feel to it, magic can be hard to miss or just out of the corner of your eye. I tend to play characters that make people blink and reconsider their sense of things as they're from a place that's not Earth or a time when not everyone got an education. The past is another world and that's what makes is so fascinating.

I really enjoyed writing this and I know that I missed some things so I'd love anyone's questions, because I know what makes sense to me might not to anyone else.

I'm at the point in the semester where its hard to see the end even though its sneaking up on me. A week from tomorrow, I get to have Thanksgiving break and seeing friends though I know I have some work that I should be doing then.

Currently I'm sore and worn out and all the things that aren't schoolwork aren't at points I'd like. I have packages to send off and I have so many beautiful pictures uploaded on my computer that I want to share, but I'm tired.

So since I spent far too much of last night talking about what's not working, this little entry is going to be for what's good and inviting some prompts in.

Its holiday card season and my entry for addresses and card request is here with screened comments.

I've signed up for Yuletide, I didn't do as many offers or requests as I wanted to due to the form being odd, but I'm happy with my choices.

I have a new pup in Milliways, William Evans, who I'm really enjoying.

This morning there was frost on the ground as I walked to class and so give me prompts full of seasons and shifting moments. I'm in the mood to write but I don't know what. I'm open to prompts for any of my fandoms or RP stuff since I consider Milliways and Mixed Muses two of my fandoms.

Actually small edit, if you'd like to give me one of my icons and I'll do a drabble from that, I'd love that too. I'd forgotten that misslucyjane had that clever prompt.