Thoughts on the Journey

This morning I woke up feeling sore after a nightmare where I was crawling on a roof no, not even a roof, the gutter or a windowsill, it was thin and scary. Then I had a weird moment in a fandom thing that left me feeling not great, it wasn’t anything huge. It just hit me when I was already feeling in not a great mood.

Its been grey and rainy most of today, I’ve had to turn on my heat in May which is so weird. Also I’m getting ready to apply for unemployment as my job contract is finished and its giving me that sense of oh right, that’s real. But the previous work still have me on an automatic email thing so need to email them about that. Good news is that I finished The Goblin Emperor, which I’ve been reading every moment I can the past few days. That’s a beautiful book, my only wish was that it was longer, the end feels like a good end but I would have read more. I love the world and the characters and wanted to see more of Maia coming into his own.

Now I’m considering ordering in for the first time in this place and its going to be the pizza delivery order that I used to do I think back in college. I’m just tired and sore and miss being able to go to a cafe or library to read and to hug someone. And my brother and family won’t be visiting from Europe this summer, not a surprise but still sad.